Hi Everyone! I don't know what you know about me, but I am a second generation Arizona native. I am from a prominently Italian family on my Mom's side. Think My Big, Fat, Greek Wedding. I am a pharmacy technician manager by night...and an author, artist and designer by day because I work my "day job" at night.
Things have not always been easy for me. In fact, nothing has been easy. As a child, my mother used to speak for me. I don't know that she actually intended to, but I learned to let her speak for me. Until I lost my voice (not literally). When called upon to speak way into my adulthood, I panic. I couldn't speak to people in person and on the phone. I had an anxiety disorder with severe panic attacks that defined my life.
I have suffered from depression, from overthinking for most of my life. I remember having episodes as a child, but never anxiety and panic to this extent. As I mentioned, I am a pharmacy technician manager, which means I have a team of people I oversee. I speak not only in person, on the phone, but I also speak in meetings and train people.
How did I go from debilitating anxiety and panic to a pharmacy technician manager? If it weren't for my faith in God and art, I would not have survived. I immersed myself into my own universe that I wrote in my novels. As I would write them, something amazing happened, I started to heal. Little by little, page by page, I talked to someone, I spoke on the phone, I did an interview on the radio, I volunteered an answer at my college writing class. It wasn't overnight, but it was so gradual that I didn't realize what was happening until I became a pharmacy technician, where people thought I was an extrovert by nature. I am not. I can be at work, but I also love my alone time.
This blog is for creatives, for people who are creative that are struggle with depression and anxiety. I will provide tips on writing, painting and dealing with depression. Come along for the journey.